26 Weeks!

The last two weeks have flown by in a flash. I have been very busy at work and the weekends seem to be packed too. I wish I could say that we have gotten more done in the nursery but there has been no time to do anything other than little things here and there. I have had some really great days where I feel pretty good and some harder days when I am just exhausted and feel kind of crappy. I invested in some good “walking shoes” that were much more supportive than the Toms and flip flops I had been wearing every day which made a huge difference. I also invested in a support belt, which arrived in the wrong size so I actually reordered it today. I see the OB again on Wednesday and hopefully we will go to Orange County for our regular Labor Day beach weekend on Thursday. Last night we celebrated our 5 year wedding anniversary! We were able to have a nice dinner together, which was unfortunately the culprit behind my crazy heartburn all night/today.

 

How Far along: 26 Weeks

Total Weight Gain: Up 14 pounds from pre-pregnancy weight

Maternity Clothes: Yes. And two of my maternity tank tops are too short! I do have an amazing non maternity tank top from Athleta that still fits and it the most comfortable and flattering thing ever. Its my favorite Saturday think to wear!

Movement: Yes! Way more frequently than before.

Stretch marks: No

Sleep: Bad day to ask because I have been up since 3 am when I was hit was crazy heartburn, insomnia, and congestion. Overall its been ok. I wake up sore every morning especially in my hips.

Best moments:  Just when I finally relax at the end of the day feeling the babies squirm around.

Miss Anything: Nothing major.  Sleeping comfortably!

Food Cravings: Iced Tea. I’ve also been wanting just a small piece of chocolate before bed.

Anything make you feel queasy or sick: Just some motion sickness issues. Otherwise I have been feeling pretty good (knock on wood!)

Showing: Yes!

Gender: Girls!

Labor signs: No. I do get Braxton Hicks if I overdo it. It goes away when I sit in the recliner with my feet up.

Symptoms: I get tired really fast. Lots of pain in my tailbone if I sit too long, especially on a hard chair. Its totally difficult to sit up straight for a long time too. My feet ache if I’m standing or walking too long. Heartburn. Nothing crazy. Just generally getting more uncomfortable.

Belly Button: OUT

Wedding Rings: After a day of major swelling in my hands I switched to a silicone ring that I used to wear to the gym!

Mood: Happy.

24 Weeks!

I had really wanted to do an update at 22 weeks, but I was honestly way too busy that week, and that was the weekend of my first baby shower! Time has been going by super-fast and I can hardly believe I am closing in on the third trimester in just a few weeks!

Since my last update we found out we are having twin girls! We had a super fun gender reveal party at our house. My stepson was so excited when we popped the balloons and pink confetti came out. He really wanted sisters.

We took a quick overnight trip to Tahoe to spend some time with some friends who were vacationing there. It was such a fun time but the altitude was really hard for me.

We took our hospital tour which was really interesting! It made me feel a lot more comfortable just knowing where things are, and the information they handed out about being in the hospital for the birth was really great. I also confirmed that no matter what kind of birth I have I will be delivering in an OR instead of a birthing suite. I am a little concerned as to how two babies, myself and my husband will all fit into the tiny postnatal suites for recovery. I seriously wouldn’t even be comfortable sitting on the tiny bench they expect the dads to sleep on!

The following weekend I headed to Colorado for my family baby shower. I had some motion sickness on the plane when some minor turbulence came up which never would have bothered me in the past and it was a little bit hard to sit for two hours but overall the flights went pretty quickly. I made sure I was well hydrated for both the flights and my stay in Colorado so I did not have the issues I did in Tahoe. It was also cooler weather and I wasn’t outside in the sun as much which I think helped. It was great to see my mom and her side of the family and the shower was a lot of fun. My mom made the cutest twin fruit basket ever.

Finally last weekend I did quite a bit of work on the nursery. Things are slowly coming together and I am trying not to overdo it during the free time I have. I was super happy that some friends came and helped put together the closet furniture so I was able to get things a little more organized.

Work has been really busy which has made the weeks just fly by! When I look at my calendar for the rest of the month it’s a little overwhelming. The nice thing is that we have half days on Fridays from the first Friday of August until after Labor Day weekend.   This week my stepson and husband (he’s the coach) started soccer practice and next week my stepson goes back to school (third grade!). We have a trip booked to Orange County over Labor Day weekend that I am hoping I will be able to take! I have an OB appointment the day before we are supposed to leave so I am hoping as long as things are still going well I can be cleared to go. It’s only a 1 hour flight and I will be 28 weeks.

 

 

How Far along: 24 Weeks on Saturday. The babies currently weigh 1 lb 10 oz and 1 lb 9 oz and are right on track!

Total Weight Gain: Up 10 lbs from pre-pregnancy weight.

Maternity Clothes: Yes tops and dresses. Regular Maxi Skirts, athletic shorts, and leggings still fit. Also a few of my regular workout clothes that are on the longer side fit. I basically wear the same 6 things to work because I am so over spending money on new clothes that I can’t wear for very long!

Movement: YES! Mostly on my right side and some around my belly button, which makes sense given how the babies are positioned (per our growth scan this morning).

Stretch marks: No

Sleep: Some nights are better than others. Up a lot to pee, but I also have to drink a ton of water through the night or I get leg cramps. I got the pregnancy wedge which has really helped support my belly. I usually wake up 3-6 times per night to readjust and pee!

Best moments:  Seeing the babies today! My family baby shower! Feeling them move, especially right before bedtime!

Miss Anything: Nothing major.  Sleeping comfortably!

Food Cravings: Iced Tea. Nothing else regularly.

Anything make you feel queasy or sick: Just some motion sickness issues. Otherwise I have been feeling pretty good (knock on wood!)

Showing: Yes!

Gender: Girls!

Labor signs: No. I did have some braxton hicks a few weeks ago when we were in Tahoe. The altitude was super hard for me and I was out in the sun for quite a while on a hot day. After laying down with my feet up and drinking tons of water I felt much better but they were not fun!

Symptoms: Lower back pain. It’s really hard for me to sit up straight for a long period of time, especially after eating lunch. My desk chair is pretty much in full recline! If I am on my feet too long my ankles swell and ache. I have also been more tired lately. Nothing horrible!

Belly Button: Flat in the morning, out in the afternoon after I’ve had lunch!

Wedding Rings: After a day of major swelling in my hands I switched to a silicone ring that I used to wear to the gym!

Mood: Happy.

Until next time XOXO!

Compromised

Social Media is so powerful.  I am so grateful for the ways that blogging plus social media has been able to connect me to so many amazing women going through infertility.  Seriously what a blessing that has been the past three years of blogging.

I honestly wasn’t really sure what would happen to my blog after my pregnancy.  I have loved having this as a safe space to deal with the struggles of infertility and now pregnancy and was hoping that could extend to parenthood as well.  I wasn’t totally sure how that would work given that I know for some still in the throes of infertility seeing posts of babies and parenting can be difficult, however I have always loved to hear about the next chapter for those who were finally able to realize the dream of parenthood.

I decided early on not to share this space with my real life friends and family (except you D, for obvious reasons), because I did not want to have to sensor what I was writing.  Three years ago when I started my blog I was just trying to figure everything out.  I was overwhelmed and confused.  I was constantly hearing the typical comments from those friends and family such as just relax or go on vacation.  Those people who wanted to support me didn’t know how, and I didn’t know how to let them.  They didn’t get it.  They didn’t understand the science of it all, the emotion of it all, the cost of it all, or the true struggle I was going through.  I needed an outlet and this was it.  It was like free therapy to just write it all out and have it read by an audience that really understood.  My response to each friend or family member that unknowingly said something insensitive needed to be individualized to that person, not something that I distributed over the internet for my whole real life community to read about.  For that reason, and many more, I decided my blog needed to be separate.

With that said, this blog, my safe space, has been compromised to eyes that were not meant to see it.

Thanks in part to Instagram’s new update meant to connect us with more people, my insta account, and by extension my blog address, were made known to people I did not want to have this access.  Truthfully I am very open to my friends about my journey.  Over the years I have found ways to share with people and handle the possibly uneducated or hurtful comments that might come, and provide appropriate feedback.  My journey to pregnancy through ART is not a secret, but it’s also not something I put on Facebook.  I believe for this particular part of my life that a personal conversation serves much better than a social media interaction with friends and family.  Further, for professional reasons, I needed to keep my experience with infertility private from social media.

While my blogging insta account was not connected to my Facebook, last name, or my regular email address, I did make it so that I would be able to switch between my primary insta account and my blog insta account without logging out.  This somehow made it so the blogging account would come up as suggested account to my primary account followers.  I have made my blogging insta account private, which I really did not want to do, and blocked those people who have followed the account from my real life.  If you are one of them, it’s not personal.  I am not hiding anything from you.  That account is for me, and I still post updates on my regular account.  I also found that people who I don’t actually know, but are connected to me through others, have discovered the account, which is the bigger issue.   I am not hiding anything, as would be obvious by the posts I have made, however I doubt that you have decided to follow my blogging account because you are interested in my journey.

With that said, I will continue to post pregnancy updates every other week(ish) as I have been.   I will continue for now to post to my blogging insta account which is now private.   After that, I don’t know what will become of this blog or that account.  Maybe I will start a new one.  Maybe I will just stop blogging out of sleep deprivation.  Maybe I will just use my primary insta account.

As far as past posts, I may make some of those private, but I had really hoped that this blog could be a resource for those just starting their own journey with infertility as so many other blogs were for me.  I do know that I do not want this blog, my story, to be the source of gossip for others.  Since my audience has now changed, I will tell you, if that is how you choose to use it, shame on you.

20 Weeks Updates

The past few weeks I finally hit the sweet spot of pregnancy.  I actually feel good most of the time.  I have energy!  My constipation issues are gone (for now at least).  I am actually able to enjoy food again.  Its been magical.

We had an anatomy scan on Monday and both babies are doing well.  They were measuring about 5 days ahead.  We will have another growth scan at the beginning of August with perinatal.  I am also loving that so far my OB does a quick US at every appointment.  Its so great to see the babies so often.  This time my stepson was able to come with us to the appointment so he got to see the babies too.  I think that was a really important experience for him.

Right now I see my OB every 4 weeks and I get growth scans every 4 weeks.  I thought this would feel like forever in between appointments since I had such frequent appointments earlier in my pregnancy, but the time between goes really fast.

We spent the 4th of July week on a staycation.  My dad and brother came to visit and my stepson was with us the whole 10 days as his mom was in Hawaii.  My brother and husband took him to do some fun things like bowling and a water park.  We also took him to the movies and my husband took him to Six Flags.  We wanted to do some fun things for him since we aren’t doing a big family vacation this year.  My brother was also able to help my husband get a few things done around the house including building the nursery dresser.  We had some painters come in and paint the room and we got new carpet in our front room!  It was a really productive week!

Later this month we have our hospital tour scheduled and I will be going to Colorado for my family shower.  I know its early but I did not want to take a 3 hour flight any later in my pregnancy.

 

How Far along: 20 Weeks (on Saturday)

Total Weight Gain: Only Down 1 pound from pre-pregnancy weight!

Maternity Clothes: Yes tops and a few dresses.  Still able to wear my normal shorts, leggings, and maxi skirts.

Movement: I found out at my anatomy scan that at least one of the placentas (Baby B on top) is anterior, which explains why I haven’t felt a lot.  I do feel some flutters here and there, especially lower on my stomach.  Baby B’s head is also on my upper right side (per the ultrasound) and I often get a lot of pressure there.

Stretch marks: No

Sleep: Getting harder to be comfortable and waking up a lot more.

Best moments:  Seeing the babies at my OB appointment last week and then again at my Perinatal appointment this week.  Getting our nursery painted and some of the furniture assembled.  Spending the week with my dad and brother.

Miss Anything: Nothing major.  Sleeping comfortably!

Food Cravings: Asian food, iced tea, tacos and cheese nachos

Anything make you feel queasy or sick: Still not loving meat, but its getting better.  Chicken is the hardest.  I have to eat frequently or I start to feel queasy.  I was cleaning our entertainment center last weekend and randomly had to throw up.

Showing: Yes!

Gender: Finding out on Saturday

Labor signs: No

Symptoms: Still occasional nausea, feeling very full after eating which makes sitting upright at my desk difficult, Gas (but no constipation so yay!)

Belly Button: Definitely flattening out.

Wedding Rings: On

Mood: Happy. Occasionally moody.

Looking forward to: Our gender reveal this weekend.  My first shower at the end of the month with my family.

 

Reflections on 20 weeks of Pregnancy

This post is entirely about being pregnant. If you aren’t ready to read it, then please don’t as it is not meant to hurt anyone. I know what it’s like to be in the throes of infertility. Somedays you just can’t. But I always loved hearing the positive things from those whole finally got here after hard fought battles. It gave me hope.

Also this is about my experience with pregnancy. And the gist really is that everyone’s experience is different and embrace it so it works for you.

 

How could it be? Just a few days shy of 20 weeks pregnant. There were so many times that I prayed for this. So many times I wondered if this was in God’s plan for me. And here I am.

To be honest I didn’t know how I would really feel about pregnancy itself. I mean I have a weak stomach, horrible motion sickness, and basically broken digestive system as it is, so I was pretty nervous about how pregnancy might take its toll on me. There are a few things that I have been surprised, or not so surprised about in my first twenty weeks that I wanted to document.

You can be totally completely happily miserably pregnant. There are just moments that aren’t fun, but you can endure them while they make you feel physically horrible and still be incredibly happy at the same time.

There are really two kinds of “morning sickness”. There is the kind that has you down for the count for hours/days feeling absolutely miserable constantly. There is also the kind that comes up on you like a ninja at the most unexpected and inconvenient time and then goes away as soon as you empty your stomach…..and it will happen and it will happen RIGHT NOW. Carry bags just in case.

Eat your fiber. Lots and lots of fiber. If you need a little motivation imagine yourself having to go to the ER or Urgent care for an enema (this was VERY close to reality for me a few weeks ago). You may have been very regular before, but the hormones can really cause some disruption. Eat your fiber.

Sometimes you need to call the nurse advice line. I am seriously not the type to complain or seek medical help for things. But your body is going through some crazy shit and Dr. Google will either scare the crap out of you or make you think you are fine when you really should see someone. Call the nurse because you will be very upset with yourself if you don’t and it’s actually a serious issue.

Your doctor may be perfect for you, and not right for someone else. I like my doctor. Our personalities are compatible. She knows her stuff and I trust her. She also isn’t the type to coddle you or chit chat about your day. That is totally okay with me. She gets a lot of flak on some of the local moms groups Facebook pages because of her bedside manner. I get that. She isn’t rainbows and ponies. She is smart, qualified, and I feel she will give me the best care. She is a great doctor for me, but she might not be for someone else. So when I read or hear about other’s experiences I do not hold it against her or let it sway my opinion of her. That being said, if you aren’t comfortable with your doctor, find a new one.

Everyone wants to tell you what is going to happen to you based on their own experience. I spent the first 4 weeks after finding out I was pregnant feeling pretty normal other than being tired. Literally everyone told me I was so lucky because that meant I wasn’t going to have morning sickness since I had made it to around 10 weeks. And then I spent the rest of my first trimester and the beginning of my second feeling crappy almost 100% of the time. Everyone told me it would pass at 12 weeks, then 14 weeks, then 16 weeks……finally at 18 weeks I started to consistently feel good.

When the worst of Morning Sickness has passed, you might still have your moments. I still get that spontaneous need to throw up every now and then even though I feel pretty good most of the time. It may never go away.

One of my friends told me that she felt that when she got pregnant it wouldn’t be hard for her to eat completely healthy because she loves healthy food. I laugh. Hard. I used to eat mostly paleo. I spent the last 4 months unable to eat meat most of the time, which is the staple of paleo. What you crave, or what you can or can’t tolerate may have nothing to do with how you ate before you were pregnant. Honestly my biggest cravings have been iced tea and Asian food. The thought of French fries is appalling to me but I would take mashed potatoes and gravy in a second. Surprisingly I haven’t really wanted a lot of sugary foods, but I have loved fruit. None of it makes sense. Try your best to give your body and your baby(ies) protein and nutrition in any way you can. Give yourself a break if you want a donut.

Everyone’s body reacts differently. I had dinner with a few expectant twin moms a few weeks ago. We are all due within a week of each other. We were all showing completely differently. One woman was very self-conscious about how big she was already while I was feeling self-conscious because everyone kept telling me how skinny I looked. The truth is you have no control over how your body might react to growing babies. All you can do is take care of yourself and please don’t compare your body to anyone else.

People will touch you. Seriously they will just come up to you and put their hands on your belly. I have a feeling I’m only at the beginning of this, and I promise I will never be okay with it. It is so uncomfortable and I do not understand it. My mother-in-law is the worst of them all.

If you want to, you should celebrate the heck out of your pregnancy. Infertility does a number on us. And I seriously understand when people who have gone through infertility or miscarriages are very hesitant to even tell anyone they are pregnant, much less celebrate all the little things. There is always a fear something might go wrong for anyone, and then that feeling like we don’t want to be “too happy” because of all of our friends that are still waiting for their miracle. I am big on the golden rule and I will be honest all of the 4 plus years I was struggling I never had an issue with someone celebrating their pregnancy, especially my friends who struggled to get there in the first place. So if you want to, have the gender reveal, post on Facebook, take a poll to guess the genders….or don’t. Do what makes you happy. I have found myself being way more “public” about things that I could have ever imagined, especially because I am pretty private, but honestly this is the moment I have been waiting for literally for years and I am going to CELEBRATE every minute of it without apology.

Pregnancy is a bag of the unexpected every day. Sometimes it’s amazing and wonderful. Sometimes it’s scary. Sometimes it’s kind of gross. You don’t have to love every minute of it. Be real about it. Laugh about it. Appreciate it. And try to find moments of pure joy in it. I particularly love to look at my belly in the shower. It just makes me feel so happy to see it there. Sometimes it’s still so surreal.

Much love to you all!!! Here is to another happy and healthy 20ish weeks.

17 Week Update

It really feels like time is going so quickly.  Can it really be the last weekend of June already?  Next weekend my dad and brother will be visiting for a week, which I am really excited about.  I took the week off of work and I am hopeful to get quite a bit done around the house and with the nursery.  My morning sickness is still there, but less frequent.  Unfortunately I am experiencing horrific constipation and almost had to go to urgent care!

I finally actually look pregnant which is exciting.  I feel like it basically happened over night.  I was really starting to feel sensitive about everyone telling me how skinny I looked so I am loving it now.

We have also been dealing with some anxiety/jealousy issues with my stepson about the babies.  He is ultimately really excited to be a big brother, but he is also experiencing the normal realization that things are going to change.  We had a few hard weeks before he would tell us what was bothering him, but we are addressing the issues with him now and he is seeing a counselor.  Having a new baby/babies come into any family is stressful on an only child, and its only more complicated by him not being with us all the time.

 

How Far along: 17 Weeks

Total Weight Gain: Finally gaining back some weight. Down only 6 lbs from pre-pregnancy weight

Maternity Clothes: Last week I put on a tank top and it fit perfectly…..this week I put it on and it was way to short! I actually bought a few maternity items over the past few days, but I am still able to wear a lot of my normal clothes, as long as the shirts are long enough.

Movement: Not yet

Stretch marks: No

Sleep: Once I find a comfortable position I sleep well, but I wake up a lot to pee!

Best moments: Finally actually looking like I am pregnant. When I look at my little bump I literally feel overjoyed.

Miss Anything: Not really.

Food Cravings: Asian food and iced tea.

Anything make you feel queasy or sick: Meat has still been hard. Especially beef and chicken. I also often feel sick in the morning.

Showing: Yes!

Gender: We find out on July 16th.

Labor signs: No

Symptoms: Food aversion, constipation (OMG!!), some morning sickness

Belly Button: In

Wedding Rings: On

Mood: Happy. Occasionally moody.

Looking forward to: My dad and brother visiting over the 4th of July week.

Looking Back and Baby Registry

Today I was reminded of 2014. My uncle posted a photo of us on vacation in San Diego. I look terrible. Actually I look pregnant, even though I wasn’t. I look more pregnant in the photo that I do now, at almost 15 weeks. At the time the photo was taken I had already had 3 failed back to back IUIs that year and my grandpa had just passed away a few days prior. I was so bloated and heavy. While we had a great time that week in SoCal, it was exactly a week later that my dad went in to ICU and nearly died. I spent the rest of that summer flying back and forth trying to balance my job and being there for my dad. Finally when things turned around for him and he was back home I went on to have another failed IUI. At the end of 2014 I was in the worst health of my life physically and mentally.

Seeing that picture made me feel so grateful for where I am right now. It also makes me really grateful that I decided to take a year off from the physical and emotional tolls of infertility. I feel proud of all of the changes I made for my health. There was a time during IVF that I thought none of that mattered, that it had all been for nothing. Even if IVF hadn’t worked for us I can tell you just looking at that photo and knowing how I felt then, it was one of the most important things I have never done for myself. I know that weight isn’t everything, but today, 14 ½ weeks pregnant with twins, I weight about 15 lbs less than I did in that photo from 2014. Every product I put on my body is different now. Every product we use around our house is different.  The food we buy is different.

Making changes for your health is important and it makes a difference. Maybe not a difference that you see overnight but that photo was a serious reminder of where I was, and it wasn’t pretty.

 

On to the fun stuff………..

Thank goodness for good friends. Especially friends cut from the same mold that know the value of a good spreadsheet.

Because my friend A moved to the Bay Area last year we had preplanned a date for her to come up and help me navigate BuyBuyBaby to do a registry. My first shower is less than two months away and honestly I wanted to get a handle on what we needed so I could start gradually buying things over the next few months. When there are so many things that we need two of……expensive things……we know that we will be buying a lot ourselves. Spreading that cost over a few months, especially months I am not on maternity leave, is key.

So Sunday morning we met at BuyBuyBaby armed with a spreadsheet of items, brands, and prices, and we started scanning products.

We started in the bottle/feeding section. Let me just say, without A there I would have started crying hysterically at that point just from being so overwhelmed at the choices and we probably would have had to leave. A is a hero. Even with her well researched guidance, and great advice it was still really overwhelming.

The whole process took about three hours. We had to trade in our scanner 3 times because it kept freezing, and the stroller/car seat section was understaffed so we had to wait quite a while for help (the rocker/crib section however was crawling with employees that wouldn’t leave us alone!).  Doing a registry is not a fast process.

When we finished I felt like I had a good list. There were a few things I wanted to research further and a few things I may change when we find out the genders, but all-in-all it was a successful day.

I also registered at Target, which I am still working on, but a word of advice if you plan to register there…..the website is terrible for adding items. There are a ton of things (such as baby carriers and pacifiers) that the website doesn’t let you add to the registry. There is only an “add to cart” button. Finding things online is also a nightmare. If you plan to register there get the Target Registry App on your phone. It is WAY easier and you can actually scan products in the store from your phone onto your registry. You can also search products on the APP and add them that way without the annoying “cart” glitch.

Some baby sections at Target are better than others. The one near my work is terrible and they barely carry any baby stuff. The one near my house is much better. If you plan to register in store I would recommend finding a Target with a good baby section. Target also has a lot of “seasonal” items that are discontinued quickly. I am not just talking about things like swim diapers or snow suits either. I tried registering for a very basic swaddle and the app told me it was being discontinued. Just watch out for that.

I would highly recommend bringing a friend with you to register or at least taking the time to do a lot of research beforehand, otherwise you will be overwhelmed and run out of the store in pregnant hormonal tears.

14 Weeks Updates

I will actually be 14 weeks on Saturday, but I don’t usually blog on the weekends so here is my slightly early update.

The last few weeks have been very eventful, and not all in good ways unfortunately.

The day I hit 12 weeks I finally felt great. It was such a great day. I was finally able to catch up on things around the house and even get a few extra things done. I actually felt somewhat hungry, which was a huge thing for me. We even went to a local furniture and appliance store and bought a new recliner and dishwasher! The following day I was back to feeling crappy. I managed to go to the grocery store in the morning to get a few things, but spent most of the rest of the day laying down. My appetite had once again completely vanished.

Monday morning I felt even worse. I managed to make it to work but I was very nauseous and left around 2 with a horrible headache. By the time I got home my headache was a migraine and I started to get very sick, unable to keep anything down. This has happened a few times before and usually goes away the next day. Well this time that was not the case and on Tuesday my headache was gone but I was still throwing up quite a bit. I called the doctor and they prescribed me Reglan. A friend went to pick it up for me (my husband was out of state on a business trip). The nurse told me to take two doses over six hours and if it didn’t work I needed to go to the ER. I took both doses and I was just getting worse. Unfortunately it was now after 10pm and with my husband gone I had no one to take me to the ER so I just waited it out through the night. It was horrible to be alone and I was really scared. Finally at 7 am I contacted a friend and she took me to the ER.

I arrived a just the right time because it wasn’t busy and I only had to wait a few minutes. The started an IV and tried giving me Reglan via IV, but it did not help. After 2 hours or so they finally gave me Zofran via IV and it was like magic. I finally had some relief. I ended up being in the ER for about 7 hours as they filled me with 4 bags of fluid. My husband thankfully got home from his trip about 2 hours before I was discharged and picked up my new prescription for Zofran on the way home. I spent the next two days in bed recovering. I have been taking 1-2 Zofran a day as needed since.

Thankfully by Friday night I was feeling good enough to hop on a plane to Kansas to celebrate my grandma’s 90th birthday. I would have been crushed if I had to miss the trip. It was a long flight but it was very worth it. I spent the weekend with family and saw a few friends, but the best was seeing my grandma at her party. We told her she could start telling people about the twins and she was over the moon. She basically told every person as they came in. She is generally not the most positive person so seeing how excited she is to be a great grandma is so awesome.

After the party we had family photos taken and the photographer took a few special shots of us to announce the babies. Other than being totally exhausted and having a good amount of back pain I felt pretty good over the weekend, and I was able to eat a lot more than I have been which was great.

We got home Tuesday night and headed to the perinatologist (high risk OB) first thing Wednesday morning for an NT scan of the babies. It was the most fun ultrasound we have had and everything looked perfect. They were able to see the babies’ hearts and stomachs and brains! They have both grown so much! They are both measuring right on track and heartbeats were in the 150s. I loved the perinatologist! She was so positive and I really enjoyed talking to her. She said the babies are positioned well and everything looked perfect.

I am super happy to have a 3 day work week. While I am still having some nausea the back pain is the worst, especially after working all day. This should be a fun weekend as my stepson is playing in his basketball league’s all-star game on Friday, we are getting our new dishwasher installed on Saturday as well as getting our second crib and recliner delivered, and on Sunday we are registering!

 

How Far along: 13 Weeks 5 Days

Total Weight Gain: Still down about 7 pounds. Hopefully that starts to change as I get my appetite back and start feeling better.

Maternity Clothes: Not yet

Movement: Not yet

Stretch marks: No

Sleep: Getting harder to get comfortable but not bad.

Best moments: Seeing how excited my grandma is about the babies, and our scan yesterday!

Miss Anything: Just being able to do something simple without back pain or getting tired really fast.

Food Cravings: No

Anything make you feel queasy or sick: Apparently a little airplane turbulence, meat, and when I first get up in the morning.

Showing: A little bit!

Gender: Don’t know yet, but its funny how everyone asks “Do you know what you’re having? Oh well what do you want to have?” As if we get to decide. HAHA. We find out July 11th. I am toying with having a little BBQ/Reveal party.

Labor signs: No

Symptoms: Food aversion, BACK PAIN! Nausea

Belly Button: In

Wedding Rings: On

Mood: Mostly Happy. Tired a lot. Pregnancy brain is REAL! Earlier this week I wrote a check to our dog sitter and dated it March 31st!

Looking forward to: My new dishwasher and registering!

11 Week Updates

Today I am officially 11 weeks 2 days pregnant, and my appointment on Friday went great. Both babies were moving around, especially Baby B. Baby A looks like s/he is waving at us in the ultrasound photo. Both babies were measuring one day ahead with great heartbeats.

Morning sickness has gotten way worse the past two weeks. Unfortunately I have been continuing to lose weight (down 7 lbs.) but the doctor wasn’t worried about it right now. My list of food I can stomach is also decreasing down to crackers, soup, toast, PB&J, and smoothies. That’s pretty much it. On the bright side I am not as exhausted as I was before. I can actually make it through the whole day without a nap, although if I get the chance I will still take one.

After almost 5 years of infertility every time I see the babies on the ultrasound it does not seem real. I just lay there looking at them sort of unbelieving that they are mine, and they are doing well.

 

How Far Along: 11 Weeks 2 days

Total Weight Gain- 7 Pounds lost thanks to morning sickness and food aversion

Maternity Clothes- Not yet

Stretch Marks- No

Sleep: Pretty good but learning to sleep on my side is a serious adjustment for this stomach sleeper.

Best Moment this week: Seeing the babies!

Miss Anything: My appetite

Movement: not yet

Food Cravings: More like what can I actually manage to eat which isn’t much!

Anything making you feel queasy or sick: Most food. Being a passenger in a car. Just being awake.

Showing: No

Gender: Don’t know yet

Labor Signs: No

Symptoms: As stated above morning sickness, food aversion to everything, tired.

Belly Button: In

Wedding rings: on

Mood: Mostly happy. A little overwhelmed by the amount of things we need to do this summer to get ready by 30 weeks, especially since I have been so sick lately!

Looking Forward To: Getting all the extra stuff cleaned out of the nursery. Seeing my family in two weeks for my Grandma’s 90th birthday!

Checking In

Hello! So sorry for my unexpected break from blogging the last few weeks. Truthfully I have been slammed at work and way too exhausted to do anything when I’m not working. Thankfully that seems to be getting a little better. At least I made it to 9pm without a nap yesterday which is something.

Since my last ultrasound at 8 weeks 2 days I have met with the nurse practitioner at my OBs office and done a bunch of lab work. The nurse gave me tons of information, which I have been slowly reading as I have the energy. This Friday I will see my actual doctor and get another ultrasound. I will be `10 weeks 6 days at that appointment. I plan to tell my work the following week when my boss is in town assuming the appointment goes well and the babies are still doing great.

In the meantime I am doing lots of research on baby products and twin baby products. I am going to register in June, which seems really early, except I need to have everything totally ready to go by the end of September (30 weeks).

My mom is throwing me a family shower in Colorado in July and my friends are throwing me a local shower in September. We are in the process of getting the guest room converted into a nursery, and the current playroom converted into a guest room. My part is this is basically organizing or purging all of the random things stored in the nursery and telling my husband where to move furniture. We are also recarpeting the main living room of our house which desperately needs to be done before we have babies crawling on it. A new dishwasher will be a must purchase item before the babies come as well.

I have bought a few things for the nursery but it still feels a little strange to do so. This weekend we are going to purchase a second crib after my appointment as well to match the one we have (because it is on sale right now).

My mom has been really awesome and already sent me baby clothes. She pretty much asks me weekly when we find out the genders. It’s great to see how excited she has been.

Outside of all things baby we are headed to Kansas for Memorial Day weekend! We are going to celebrate my grandma’s 90th birthday and it’s my 15 year high school reunion (OMG I’m getting old). 2015 was the first year in my entire life I did not go back to Kansas. I am sure some of my family members weren’t thrilled about that, but my dad came to visit us last year, and I spent most of the previous summer there when my dad was sick. It is so hard to balance everything when I have so little vacation time and I really do feel guilty about it. I am really looking forward to this trip so I hope it all goes smoothly.

I hope everyone is doing well and I will try to update after my appointment on Friday! XOXO