What I’ve Gained in 2014

All in all, I am thrilled to say goodbye to 2014. Seriously cheers to 2015. I am feeling hopeful and a little anxious about the upcoming year but it is great to get a fresh start so-to-speak.

In the spirit of being positive here are five things I have gained in 2014. Some of them are silly and some more heartfelt and serious. What have you gained this year?

1. These leggings.
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Did they change my life? Maybe, a little bit. Just kidding. They are pretty damn amazing though. So comfortable and I love the pockets. Also thick and dri-fit. They are pricey but I used a gift card. Actually I have another gift card and I plan to buy another pair, possibly in the grayish color. I love leggings in general and these are honestly the best.

2. Some seriously amazing blog friends. I started my blog in 2013 as an outlet for everything bc I was feeling completely alone. It took me a while to start to comment on other’s blogs because I was feeling so very uncomfortable about everything but in 2014 I made an effort to open myself up. I am a true introvert at heart and opening up about something that is so personal was difficult, but it has been so rewarding. One of my 2015 goals is to open myself up further to others in the infertility community. My first step was to join a support group through Resolve (Thanks to Jessah) and I am looking forward to my first gathering! Infertility is gut-wrenching but it does not have to be lonely!

3. A list on Southwest. Never in one year have I ever spent so much time on an airplane. The upside is that in 2015 I will be able to earn more frequent flier miles per flight, and reap the other benefits of such a high air travel honor (read the sarcasm). Also a large majority of those flights resulted in a lot of family time. Unfortunately most of them were not under the best of circumstances but regardless of the situation it is always great to see extended family.

4. The end of overnight travel for work. For the previous two years I spent 1-7 nights per week away from home due to work. Usually it was 2 or 3 nights but this was an almost every week occurrence which is extremely draining. It was so hard to be away from family for half of the week and I constantly felt stressed. I never felt like I had enough time to accomplish errands and household chores and spend quality time with my family. Being home this year (thanks to a job change) has been a breath of fresh air. I have work-life balance again and that has tremendous value.

5. A refreshed appreciation for family. Losing my grandpa and almost losing my dad in 15 days was a wake up call. When I boarded the plane home from Colorado in April I knew there was a good chance that might be my last time with my grandpa. I was hopeful but he was very sick and I feel so blessed to have spent that time with him. When I got on the plane to go home from Kansas in May it never crossed my mind that might be my last time with him and getting the call he was on life support was shocking to say the least. I am grateful beyond words that he made it through and has been doing so well since. He is a different person. He has made great life changes to continue to improve his health and his general attitude is so positive.
The truth is that family can drive you crazy. Sometimes its hard to get past some of their actions. And life is hectic and we only have so much time off and financial resources. Family should be a priority always. I spent nearly 15 years believing my brother did not want to have a relationship with me. I should have reached out…..and kept doing it. In 2015 I will be doing everything I can to maintain a relationship with all family members. I will work on my patience with them and overlook the small disagreements. I cannot imagine how it would feel if something happened to a family member and I didn’t do everything I could to have a good relationship.

What did you gain in 2014? What are you going to focus on improving in 2015?

Show Some Love

About a year and a half ago, right before I went to my first RE appt, I met Desirae and a friend’s bachelorette party. She was about 6 months in to the TTC journey at the time and feeling frustrated. As time went on we kept in touch and started going to the same RE. This has been a tough year for her as she ended up having laparoscopic surgery and loosing a tube followed by 3 failed IUIs. She is now on to IVF in 2015. Its honestly been so amazing getting to know her (even under such unfortunate circumstance) but her support has been amazing for me. With her pursuit of IVF she has started a blog. Please visit her page and say hello!

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